Monday, January 26, 2009

The day of defeat and re-motivation!

To Day started off like any other except instead of going to the gym at 6:30 am as has become the norm, I had a to be at the University of Alabama R.E.C. center for a quick dip in the bod-pod. For those of you who don't know what that is, its a small casket like machine that was created by the Devil in the abysis, the darkest place in hell. It measures lean Muscle Mass and body fat, I am a rather large guy, I wasn't hoping for 10%, or even 25%, cause in my mind I knew better. I was kinda familiar with the process, and how the number came to be, I was shooting for 30's cause no longer than I been back dedicated at the gym, I thought thats where I would be. If you ask me I would have said, between 32% to maybe 38%, cause I got some good muscle, my chest and shoulders are huge, my arms and legs are lean, but to my surprise it was in the 40's for a brief few minutes, I couldn't think but what the FUCK, I only eat bad one or two meals a week, I workout in the morning for almost an hour and a half then I come back and do cardio, for 30 minutes in the evening, how is this possible?

It was like getting hit in the face with a board, but then I really start looking at myself in the mirror and I have lost 45 pounds but I still look like a smaller version of myself, the actual compisition of my body probably hasn't change a whole hell of alot. So its back to the drawing board, time to start a fresh new workout, actually write down my calorictic intake and keep up with measurements, the brain work if you will. Evidently eating a ton of protein, drinking lots of water, and working out like an insane person isn't exactly the most proficient way of making it to my goals, so I guess in essence the morning wasn't a total loss, I now know that what I was doing wasn't working. I guess it's better to find out two and half months in as opposed to continuing to do the same things that weren't working.

So I guess all I can really say is, if you think you are in shape, you think you got your diet and workout plan just where you want it, go get in the bod-pod, it was definately an eye opening experience.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

An Introduction

I know a few things about me are in the about me section, but that is a little general for you to understand why I call this blog Psychotic Rambling. So I thought a little background information was in order.

I have had quite the rocky last couple of years, but we learn the most in the chaos. As I told you in my about me section I am a recovering alcoholic, which has had a big impact on my views and personality, It took the right amount of motivation for me to stop and that was provided by the Alabama Department of Corrections and Judicial Services, between my five arrest I have been in jail a total of 10 days, only three of which have come in succesion, good lawyers, and a baby face I am convienced. Been to Rehab and have completed the entire course work for the Community Corrections Substance Abuse Programs, so I am an educated on the subject. It was only after quiting and completing said programs that I realized I had to put my life back together, when I was using I didn't know it was apart, but from about 2001 till September 28, 2007 I pretty much spent my life just getting by and getting slammed. I was a functioning alcoholic, however, I did manage to get a B.A. Degree from the University of Alabama, and hold a few profitable jobs. I have now started getting my life and career back on a more scheduled, stable basis. A little behind the curve for most of the people my age, but I had a great time for a good while. I good bit of my blogging will come from these experiences.

I am N.A.S. amauter Strongman, for which I train almost daily withen reason, I did a little bit of the strongman deal during my alcohol fueled rage but never with the dedication that I have now. I am making progress but very slowly, cause I am Natrual competitor for the time being but I am open to change, when that decision come up again. My dream or vision is to one day compete in the strongman elite series, or more commanly known as the WSM(World's Strongest Man) but that is a long time away. I little bit of my blogging will probably come from this experience.

I sale cars, which can be a very stressful, very invigorating and at time, controled chaos that can only be tolerated by a select few individuals, sure lots of people come and go and turnover is very high but staying power is always a rarity. Customers are crazy, so I am sure there will be some good stuff come from this area of my life.

I have a few odd obcessions that will come into play from time to time, such as the Myan Prediction for Dec. 21, 2012, the end of the world as we understand it. The piss poor understanding people have for religion, both other religions and there on, I have done considerable research on these things, and it amazes me how many people claim to be one denomination or another that have no Idea what they believe and can't tell you why they are different. I also have a slight philosophical nature and like to analyze them for what they are worth. I love tattoos, I do believe in Aliens, we are so egotistical as a world to believe we are supreme beings, but we are not alone. I have strong politcal beliefs but none which fall to one party or the other, its mostly just my feeling on a case by case bases, I will bash both Rep. and Dems. alike with equal joy. I hate Peta, I hate the Global Warming Advocates. I swear ALOT, I have friends in the AB, I hate Rap music, and believe Jimmy Buffett should be branded a Saint when his time comes. I can't spell a damn thing, and chances are if somebody high up in the University of Alabama reads this thing they will revoke my Bachelors degree.

I have a beautiful Girlfriend who I love, but she drives me freaking crazy a good bit of the time. She has a daughter that I love, who has motivated me to loose some weight so I can jump on the trampoline with her, she is 2 years old and doesn't realized that I weigh 320 pounds and that would turn out well for the trampoline.

I call this blog psychotic rambling, because any or all of these subjects could come up at any time. Perhaps in the same blog, maybe even the same paragraph, and If you haven't notice already I have the tendency to RAMBLE.